The last year has been full of change. They say that the 3 most difficult, life altering events are the loss of a loved one, losing a job and moving. I experienced all 3 in 2012 and it changed me forever. I learned a lot about who I am and what I want. I think that’s called perspective…
I knew that I wasn’t going to make a living playing beach volleyball. So, I decided to take a job in New York that would allow me to have a career and still follow my passion. I figured it was another adventure in my life and I was up for a challenge. This also led me to find a wonderful man who loves me for me.
Then, in April of 2012 we found out that my mother had stage 4 lung cancer and had 6 months to live. My family consisted of myself, my mom and my dad, so I packed up some stuff and made myself back at home in Las Vegas. I missed the first 3 events of the season because my mom was in ICU and I refused to leave her side. Once we got her stable and back home, I decided to play in a few events. We finished 9th a couple times, which was a very high point for me considering I was emotionally drained. I am very thankful for my amazing boyfriend and friends who supported me through those very difficult times. Without them, I don’t know how I could have handled it.
She passed away at the end of Sept. and I spent the next few weeks with my dad cleaning up the house and trying to help him figure out what to do. He is a tremendous man who has accomplished more in one lifetime than I could ever imagine. He has always shown me what it means to be strong while doing the right thing, even if other people don’t like it. I am fortunate to have him in my life and I will continue to make him proud.
I decided that it was time for me to commit to a new life in New York and focus on my future. I was completely drained at this point and decided to keep a room in Cali for 1 more year. This would let me make an easy transition and not have to feel rushed. It has been difficult leaving behind my few close friends, who are more like family. But I have realized that those people who are your true friends will make the effort to stay in touch and keep your friendship alive.
I have started to make some friends out here and find myself looking forward to the summer. Regardless of volley drama, I really just want to enjoy playing. I want to go fishing with my boyfriend and experience life. Yes, I miss the amazing weather in SoCal but I find myself appreciating new things on the East Coast all the time. I have spent the last 17 years playing volleyball every single weekend. I think it’s time to see what else is out there.